Confessions of a dangerous mind

Who is without sin? Who doesn’t suffer from guilt? Who hasn’t experienced pain induced by self or others? Who hasn’t sat crouched on the bathroom tile or marble floor of the bedroom, rocking his/ her body back and forth and cried for hours? Who hasn’t looked at the mirror and turned away for it was hard to meet the cold, callous or incriminating eyes staring back? Who hasn’t refused to meet their parent’s eyes in the formative years? Who hasn’t called someone in the middle of the night and hung up for the fear of getting discovered? Who hasn’t abused the one who had tendered the agony? Who hasn’t been insecure enough to wonder what went wrong in a relationship and if it was because of something they did? Who hasn’t retracted from people who are intimidating? Who hasn’t violated someone else’s privacy at some point in time? Who hasn’t fancied something that belonged to someone else? Who hasn’t cheated on one’s partner at least once, even if it were only in one’s thoughts? Who hasn’t criticized someone behind his/her back? Who hasn’t lost his temper enough to give someone a scare? Who hasn’t been impatient with someone and then hurt him/her too?

People have always been amoral, shiftless, and self-gratifying beings. Most of them are self-proclaimed virtuous and chaste beings. They live in constant denial. They are the ones who discriminate, expose and finally denounce the ‘sinners’. These self-righteous beings are the real sinners. They commit all the 7 deadly sins...

An excessive belief in one’s own abilities...Vanity. Don’t the self righteous beings have an inflated sense of self-worth?

The desire to gratify one's carnal needs... but restraining or sometimes giving in to the desires... but in shadows. The fear of the truth being discovered. Envying others their freedom. Begrudging those who express their desires freely. The craving to be as bold as the self acclaimed sinners...The restrained lot is furious with the indulgent. They blaze in their own frustration. Their wrath emerges and looms like a dark cloud over the bold and the unrestrained.

The lazy and shiftless... neither aspire nor work hard to achieve their goals, nor do they want others to do anything progressive. These ‘envious’ beings are like crabs in a pit. They tug at anyone who even remotely seems to have the drive and the chance to mount...They preach sacrifice. It stands to reason that if one sacrifices it would be someone else’s gain. And who else is there to gather those sacrificial offerings but them? They are propagating the masters and slaves society. And they no doubt intend to be the masters. They try to make one feel guilty for enjoying the fruit of his/her success. They covet the same...

They desire to consume all that they can’t have. They want even what’s on other’s proverbial plate. If that’s not gluttony then what is?

Their inordinate craving for the pleasures of the body stem from their abstaining from the same...Is indulging really more sinful or the constant craving and near obsession of it? Doesn’t that encompass all the other six sins too? The mental overdose of everything that’s denied to self and the false pride that wouldn’t let them admit to their fault is sinful. And what or rather who is this renunciation for? What are they trying to prove?

Sacrifice is synonymous to escapism. All the so called Prophets we hear of, the one's who abdicate the physical comforts and go in search of 'self' and 'the meaning of life' are the true escapists and how will they ever find the meaning of life when they actually run from it? They don't live it...they would never know it

I breathe, I ache, I feel, I love, I hate, I laugh, I cry, I play, I Live...

And while I do it, I also deal with my own set of insecurities, my fear of losing things and people which were never mine...